Yesterday I took an online quiz and the outcome of the quiz really spoke to me. Here's my results:
"You are on a true journey of discovery, whether it's of yourself or the world around you. You approach all of the ups and downs of the learning process with enthusiasm, even though you don't know exactly where you might end up. You are courageous and open-minded, and you love a challenge."
Lately, I have been feeling as if I am walking blindly in my journey through life. The best that I can do is to act as I have been trained. I must exercise my faith that my life journey is linked to my innermost desires (whatever those may be...I really don't know anymore). On the surface, I know at least that I want financial stability for myself and my family so I can have a moment of mental clarity (since this world operates by monetary systems). I know I want balance. Balance can be in the form of time, or physique (to get pass injury), or busy-ness....or all of the above. I need rest and relaxation...and I don't mean this in the conventional sense. I have never been able to relax. I used to go to the masseuse and he would fuss that I couldn't relax. I need to get down the basics of what it means to relax. Walking blindly through life is scary. Uncomfortable. I am just not accustomed to not pursuing a goal. I have always set a goal, mapped out a course, and worked accordingly. I am trying something new by walking aimlessly towards .... discovery. I have always known who I am and thought in the grandest sense. Perhaps this period is about discovery in terms of simplicity...and through simplicity, I can discovery tomorrow.
